I'm going to have to write something because my discussion board assignment is due tonight!! Aaaahhh!!
i swear, my psychology statistics book makes things much more complicated than they actually are. for example, it explained a process in five complicated steps when it could've been done in two simple steps.
my classes started today, and it looks like i'll be doing a lot of reading. i really wish these online classes has some kind of video/zoom instruction but nope. this is going to be a hard semester because of that.
so. what's better for the world: globalization or nationalism? i have to write an essay (again) and am kind of overwhelmed about starting it becuase i know nothing about the topic.
i've been spending hours trying to prepare for this exam. i just did the practice exam, and it looks like i'm still not ready. if only my professor wrote down what to do in the syllabus so i didn't have to do all of it last minute!!
wish me luck for my online test that i'm not sure if i'm prepared for...
Too many college students are wearing shorts or short sleeves in 40 degree (F) weather.
i have to remake a famous painting for my art appreciation class, and it's going horribly. i don't even know what to do anymore. plus i have to present it in front of the whole class. ugh.
i have to finish this product by tomorrow night, but i can't seem to concentrate. ughhhh.
i'm somehow going to have to finish and do my part of a group presentation this week. not good. i probably can't find a way out of it now. preparing the presentation should be fine (though i doubt my group's organization), but speaking in front of people... yikes. how would i do it?? i guess i have my anxiety medication but still... i don't know what i'm going to do.
open a word document and suddenly I don't remember how to start an essay
I have a take-home exam that i'm too exhausted to do, and I need to finish it... hopefully tonight. and then I need to prepare for the next exam on Monday. Ugh. Plus all this triggering family stuff is going on.
i'm so behind on my classes, or that's how it feels. thanks, narcolepsy, for making me fall asleep when i have any motivation to get work done.
i can't tell if my instructors have been really unclear this semester, or if i've just been real scatterbrained.
so i have to take thses bias tests for my communications class, and i got this result on the gay one. how am i going to take this into class and discuss the results with my classmates, and then give it to my instructor to grade??? <span data-mce-bogus="1" data-mce-type="format-caret" id="_mce_caret">i kind of want to finish another test and take that one to class instead.</span>
like most tests, the MBTI quiz i had to take for school gave me INTP. they gave me a tiny section to write my results and why/why not i disagree, and, as someone who has opinions on MBTI tests, they didn't give me enough room!! i also want to write down that, based on cognitive functions, i might be closer to an ENTP than an INTP, but most people woukdn't believe that. having an extroverted function can be different from being extroverted socially; they both have different definitions. i want to go into detail about it, but all they give me is this tiny blank. plus i have to show it to other people, so i don't want to sound all arrogant or embarrass myself some other way. maybe i should just make the comments as simple as possible.
so, i didn't think things would be this easy, but i went to an accomodations advisor to update my college accomodations papers. i already had accomodations for physical health issues. when i brought up that my psychiatrist wanted me to ask about accomodations for psych reasons, the advisor guy asked me to be more specific. i mentioned her recommendation for accomodations around public speaking/presentations, and he just added it to the list! i didn't have to go through a process of getting a letter from my psychiatrist or filling out new forms!! so now i have the choice to choose a writing assignment over a presentation! that was so easy! what the heck!
my communications class is having us take personality tests, including an MBTI test. since i'm pretty sure those things are super inaccurate and will probably give most people the wrong answer, it's starting to bug me lol.
sooo i also spent a lot of time stressing out about what to study (works slightly different here tho, we don't get to declare a major later or what it is you do, we just choose from the beginning what to do for our bachelor). i was very into science things (bio, chem, neuro.... all that good stuff) but then i also had huge interests in other things - psych, philosophy, german, lit, something social.... just a very broad spectrum. and for a long while i had no idea, bc i also dont know what i'll want to do professionally, like, long-term. by now, i think it's not actually that important to specifically know a profession you'll want to do - a lot of academic jobs are very broad and interdisciplinary, and you'll find something that suits you.
how i ultimately made my decision of what to do, is with the thought progression "i think most of these things, if they interest me, i can learn about on my own (online, taking some class, books..), but for the science things that's very hard. i always liked lab work, and that's practically impossible to do for yourself - so i went with biochemisty (still considering a Msc in neurobiology tho). and i'm super happy with it.
i don't know if that helps at all, it's just my kind-of-incoherent 1am thoughts, but i still remember the big "????" feeling before i had to choose and it didn't feel great. if you want, you can totally tell me some of the other thoughts you've had/maybe if you have questions ? i don't know, just hoping to help :)
thank you for sending this!!
i definitely didn't think about jobs being interdisciplinary. that'll probably help me out a lot when picking something.
you're right; many things you can learn on your own. there are just multiple things i want to be able to professionally research and make discoveries in. i guess i wouldn't need college to pursue art and music. i just hope i have enough time for them.
anyway, i'm glad you found something you're happy with!! since you were in the same/a similar situation, it defnitely helps to hear you settled with something, and you're good with it.
my brain and behavior class.. i might have to drop it. it’s sad because the instructor is great, but the class requires three presentations. and it won’t be long before the first one comes up. my psychiatrist was talking about getting accommodations to get out of presentations. i just doubt i’ll get those in time. maybe it won’t be as bad as i think... i don’t know.
any tips on picking what you want to work as in the future? i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to work, especially with other people, but ever since i started some of my mental health meds, i've realized that i have an interest in a lot of things (sometimes--it's on and off depending on my mood). i don't want to waste money in college figuring out what to do. if i had to pick from a few things, i find psychology, neurology, and possibly some types of physics to be interesting. i also like philosophy and want to achieve art/music related things that aren't connected to having a degree.
i need to narrow down and focus on something soon if i'm continuing college. before long, i'll be done with all the basic stuff. even now, i have to start worrynig about which classes will work for the next level of degree i get.
i'm kind of nervous because i signed up for four classes next semester. the most i've taken at once has been two. my psychiatrist thinks i should stick with two, but i feel like, while taking two classes, i have too much free time on my hands. it actually might be better for my mental health if i take more maybe?? i should probably start with three, but... i already have four in my schedule. at least i have time to drop them i guess.